It’s coming up to my boys 1st and 3rd Birthdays at the end of this month. I’ve had a lot of time to think and grow in the last year. My boys are like chalk and cheese in every sense. One blonde haired blue eyed boy born under very difficult circumstances in hospital and taken away from me to special care straight away and fed formula. The other a brown eyed dark haired double footling breech born naturally at home and pretty much attached to me and nursed for the first few weeks.
Do I love Nash more or have a better relationship given his birth was more “natural”? No I don’t in fact Austin is probably the child I am more compatible with and have a stronger bond with. I used to feel guilty about what happened to him during and after his birth and that’s why I strived so hard for Nash’s birth to be different. Don’t get me wrong i loved both of my births as much as the other. But there is no difference in my love between the two.
Austin may have been formula fed from the start, taken away straight away, had drugs and vaccines in his system from in utero and birth. Now though none of that matters I love him as much as I love Nash and I’m as proud of his birthday and birth photos as I am of Nash’s. Some things don’t need to be over thought. Some things just need to be appreciated for the bigger picture.